Tuesday, February 6, 2024

Hello darkness my old friend.

 Hello there Blogworld.

Don't know if anyone even runs around here anymore, but it seems like a good place to return to.  Sorry it's been so long, I'm bad at turning inward and neglecting connecting because I'm too busy surviving my own storms.  

I live in the middle of this crazy place called the Palouse.  I'm super homesick.  I miss music shows, I miss friends, I miss being able to just roll up to my parent's house and say hello.  I miss my brother, I think he needs me right now... but I can't go home.

I got called for two crazy interviews, who knows what will happen.  It's all facts, numbers, and figures as an adult.  No time for the heart, no time for anything really.

I feel like I need years of staring out a train window or the farmhouse or a mountain or just breaking down at my best friend's house for DAYS.

Sometimes I don't even know where the songs come from anymore.  Like I have a clogged drain of ideas and emotions and they just take over.

Sometimes I don't realize what I can do on my own.

Often I don't believe in myself.

But as I slowly do... it makes all the small things disappear.  They don't matter.

And so I'm here again.

Hope to see you soon.

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