Hello there Blogworld.
Don't know if anyone even runs around here anymore, but it seems like a good place to return to. Sorry it's been so long, I'm bad at turning inward and neglecting connecting because I'm too busy surviving my own storms.
I live in the middle of this crazy place called the Palouse. I'm super homesick. I miss music shows, I miss friends, I miss being able to just roll up to my parent's house and say hello. I miss my brother, I think he needs me right now... but I can't go home.
I got called for two crazy interviews, who knows what will happen. It's all facts, numbers, and figures as an adult. No time for the heart, no time for anything really.
I feel like I need years of staring out a train window or the farmhouse or a mountain or just breaking down at my best friend's house for DAYS.
Sometimes I don't even know where the songs come from anymore. Like I have a clogged drain of ideas and emotions and they just take over.
Sometimes I don't realize what I can do on my own.
Often I don't believe in myself.
But as I slowly do... it makes all the small things disappear. They don't matter.
And so I'm here again.
Hope to see you soon.
